Changes

“The Only Thing That Is Constant Is Change -”

― Heraclitus

 

 

There is so much going on in our lives right now.  Amelia will be starting Kindergarten in August and just yesterday I gave my resignation to my day job.  In 3 weeks my life I'll be walking a tightrope.  

 

I've always been the dependable one, never took a leap without having a landing pad, but this time I don't know what will happen.  I know that I'll keep my Macaroni Kid Shreveport-Bossier website but beyond that who knows.    

 

I want to be there for Amelia when she starts school, things are different from when I was a kid.  Even though my mother stayed home it seems that today parents need to be more involved with their kids activities, bullying is at the worst that I've ever seen but it's proven that if a parent is around that it is less likely to happen.  So while women are being told to "lean in", I'm ready to lean out.  I want to be there when she gets home to do homework, I want to be a class Mom and PTA member, I want them to know that I'm going to fight for my child's education. 

Someone said that if I can afford it that it's great--the thing is that I really can't, that's what makes this even more of a leap for me.  I'm stepping into the unknown.  I'll still make some money off of Macaroni Kid advertising and hopefully be able to focus on it even more but it's going to be a tough (and very financially poor) road. I hope to get some contract work along the way and I know that I'll stay busy, I'm not a sit and home and eat bon-bons type of girl--regardless of what my weight tells you.  : )

 

This is a road that I must take, for myself and for my daughter.  We'll see where the road takes us.

Always my baby

A couple of weeks ago my baby turned 5 years old.  People keep saying that she's not a baby anymore but she will always be my baby. I used to think that was weird before I became a parent--like these parents really need to let go.  But now I get it.  Sure, I want her to grow and don't want to be over-involved but she is so special to me.

On Saturday I babysat a friends daughter and she was so quiet and sweet, my husband was amazed.  I think he may have even envied her mother considering Amelia is the total opposite.  Somehow I think there was a mix-up and Amelia and I belong in a loud Italian family, add our loud voices and love of pasta and there you go.

But I realized that while she can be exhausting I wouldn't change her for anything.  Her loud and boisterous personality just keeps me going, her imagination that comes up with the craziest things just shows her creativity.  With her BIG personality she will rule the world!

Sometimes when our kids make us crazy just remember that it's better than many alternatives that I've seen.  People know what Amelia will speak her mind, that she will be wild and crazy and that she will keep us on our toes.  But it's what makes her, we need more of that.  We need to stop trying to change people to fit our mold and start loving them for who they are.

Here's to my BABY girl!